An update!

Hello everyone. I'm so lame, why cant I keep up with this thing?

So heres an update...

Joey started crawling like... 2 weeks ago or something. He pulled up for the first time yesterday and he's been pulling up like a crazy monkey all day today... even on slippery slidey things. the boy has got a death wish.

We've also started some finger foods. For lunch today Joey had toast!!! He's also had a bit of jam and bread, and some fruit and vegetables too. He's an expert chewer!

Ella is talking up a storm. She spoke to my friend Amy on the phone today and said "Hello Mamy, ooa go shops? shops? byeee Mamy! Go Shops!" and hung up and walked to the front door to go and meet Amy at the shops. Well come on, she made the plans, right? She also asked the man in the chip shop for a "sausage!" when he asked what she wanted, and when the taxi driver asked her her name she said "ELLA!... ooh iss DOEY!" Ella and this is Joey! Wow, thats the first time ive not had to tell someone her name for her. He also asked her how old she was and she said 3. Not quite right, but she understood what he was asking! When you ask her what colour things are, everything is blue, but if you ask her to point out the colours, she knows which ones which, but apparently theyre all blue! She's also been making everyone kiss her "poorly" on her knee. "Poorwy"... awww.

So thats us.

We're moving house in the next couple of weeks too. Fun filled adventures for everyone!

Ella Loves Lou

This was on Sunday, but I still have to share....

Ella loves "lou"... now I dont know where lou comes from but that is what she calls any sort of cream or moisturiser or sun block... So I leave Chris and Ella upstairs and dont expect any harm to come to them , when Chris yells that "me and Ella are going to have a bath"... well, they'd both not long had a bath, so thinking this was suspicious, I ascended the stairs to find this!

Ella and the Lou!

"more please!"

OMG! I gave Ella toast for breakfast, and she just wandered into the kitchen with her empty plate and said... "more, please!" I am so proud of my little girly! She getting the hang of this talking thing!

YAY! GO ELLA!

Say NO to House Hunting

You know you have all these protests and stuff "SAY NO TO ANIMAL CRUELTY" etc etc... There should be one about house-hunting. I vote, it should be banned. How could anyone LIKE house hunting????

Ok... so Im pretty sure I'd LOVE it if i wasnt so bitter about having to leave this place behind. We were going to buy this house which is rented atm, but it appears MILs calculationg were incorrect, and I was being led astray! Turns out we cannot afford it. Any house less than the price we were going to pay for this one, is either a really horrid house, or in a scary unsafe horrible location, so im not happy.

Here is one we're going to view tomorrow night
http://www.rightmove.co.uk/viewdetails-12675629.rsp?pa_n=1&tr_t=buy&ep=via_sl

Its a small village about 15 min drive from here, but it mustnt be a very nice area, as all the houses there are really cheap. I dont know though, I've never been there, so we will see tomorrow. I've been looking at the local school report, and its not outstanding, but its not terrible. Maybe I'll ask a few of the locals tomorrow!

But for now... I must clean!

Counting...

So weve just spent a very long time trying to learn to count. She can sort of say some of the letters, and knows how many fingers is 5 (nice and easy!), but is still clueless.

"two... fiy... sees... seyen... two... fiy..."

hehe.

A Birds Sweet Morning Tunes

"BISCUITS! BISCUITS! LOLLY! BISCUITS! BISCUITS! BISCUITS! LOLLY! LOLLY!"

It was actually in a tune of some sort! Hmmm... im not sure whether to call her a clever girl or a greedy girl!

Im getting my hair cut today. My mother is coming around at any time now. My appointment is at 11am.

I am even iller today than I have been. I cannot talk, as Im all croaky because im throat hurts. I have phlegm here there and everywhere. coughing and sneezing is excrutiating! *sigh* when will this end?

Trying to crawl

Joey is so trying to crawl. He moves his feet, and his bum goes up in the air, but he doesnt move his hands/arms, and just ends up with his bum facing north and then collapses. Its so cute. I havent got a photo of it yet, because im so busy encouraging him when hes doing it I forget to get the camera! So to compensate for the lack of a photo, heres a photo of Ella and Joey playing together on the floor today.

In 10 months of living here...

Ella and Lily from next door have only ever played together twice, and that was at each others bday parties! But every day you hear Lily shouting "ELLA! ELLA!" and my non-talking child shouts back "IYIY! IYIY!" oh how they long to play. But it always goes wrong. We were meant to be going next door in an hour. Well Ella decided she could not longer keep her eyes open and has conked out! So thats that playdate called off! *sigh* So to cheer myself up, heres a photo of my babies!

LOLLY! LOLLY!

If Ella asks for another "lolly lolly lolly" again i will drop the whole freezer on her head. Ok, so I wont, but she can now open the freezer and helps herself to the ice pops. if she cant quite reach, shes tapping me and asking for a lolly lolly lolly lolly and she doesnt quit saying it until you get up and get her one!

Ella and Joey both got new shoes yday. Joey got his first pair. Size 3.5G thats half a size smaller than Ella was when she bought her first walking shoes at about 15 months!!!! BIG FEET! Can you believe I spent £16 on a pair of shoes for a 6 month old?! AM I CRAZY! Theyre so cute though (for the americans thats about $30) Ellas were £25 (£50) and dont even fit right! I pay that much money so that i can be sure theyre fitting right, and they dont! So they shall be returning to the store!

Chris has been away since last sunday, thats SEVEN DAYS, and he comes back next friday. thats another what... 5 days?! I CANNOT HANDLE THIS! He was coming home yday to surprise me, but then everything went wrong and he had to turn back and go to work. He was almost home, he'd driven 3 hours, and then had to drive 3 hours back. WHAT A WASTE! poor thing.

Im going to my lovely MILs for dinner today *ugh*, but she did actually have the decency to call me and ask me if i wanted dinner! First time ever! Maybe the fact that I invited myself last week made her realise that being home without Chris isnt quite as hunky dorey as she thinks. IM HUNGRY DAMMIT!

Joey is currently cooing at me. I have to go to the shop and buy milk *omg i so dont want to* because its Ellas nap time in less than an hour. When I go round to the shops i just take the single stroller, because the double takes to long to put up for just a 3 min journey, and it also doesnt fit in the door of the shop! But this means Ella walks. Which on a good day is not a problem, but today is not a good day. this weekend has not been a good weekend.

OH WELL! GOTTA BE DONE!

Just a quick pic!

This is just a quick (very random) pic from a couple days ago.

*hangs head in shame*

I would like to apologise to everyone for not updating my blog. I am a slacker. I am sorry *sigh*

I cannot even be bothered to update you all on our goings on, but since my last post...

Ella turned 2,
We're in the process of buying our own home,
Erm... I think thats all thats of any importance

I'll post some pics later :)

Ella the Caveman!

So the neighbours just came round to invite us to join in the birthday cake celebrations at the weekend... their daughter is turning 2....
and as they leave I say "say bye bye Ella"... she just waves and starts babbling away in her word-less way, and Lily (the girl next door) says "bye bye ella! look mama, I can see ellas tummy button! bye bye ella see you soon on my birthday. bye bye ella"...
yes i feel like my daughter is a undeveloped sort of... caveman. She just babbles... *sigh*

Little Prince Charming

Thanks for the gift Iris... TOO CUTE! (yes this was sooo last week, but thats what u get for not updating i guess!)

Our New Baby Boy

Meet Harley...

We got him last night :)

Oops Ive been slacking again!

So I havent posted for a while, but Ive not been at the computer much... Sorry! Can I just add

CONGRATULATIONS SARAH oh your new arrival Samuel. Hes just adorable!

Apple

We'd been up 10 mins this morning and Ella says "apple" well... "aaaaa bul"

IM SO HAPPY WE'RE GETTING THERE I THOUGHT IT WOULD TAKE FOREVER FOR HER TO SPEAK!

Owl

Ellas new word of the morning is Owl. I got a cracking video of her on my phone saying all the words she knows!

Ellas new words

And how about a real update!

Ella is starting to actually say words now. Today she stunned me saying "Juice" and doing the sign for juice, and also the sign for drink. She has got this off the TV programme called Something Special, which is a guy called Justin, doing signing.

She also said "hot hot hot!" and pointed at the oven yesterday! We say the oven is HOT! so she doesnt touch, but never hot hot hot... then it dawned on us... in big cook little cook, if something is going in the oven big cook ben says "Get your grown up helper to do this for you because remember, the oven is HOT HOT HOT!"

We also learnt what SCISSORS are, and Ella said scissors. I also asked her if she could say shoes, and she went out and got every pair of shoes in the house, gathered them up together in a pile and exclaimed "SHOOOOOOOOE"

she says "mmmm" when she points at her mouth. She knows it starts with an M but doesnt say the outh bit! and she says head... "eah"

if she picks something up thats gross, or goes to touch the bin, or eats something she doesnt like (eg. banana skin) we've always said "yuck dirty!" and shes just said "yuck!" now she says "yuck ditty"

So shes doing great! Im so proud of her.

Oh and at last, after months of trying to teach her the elephant action and sound, she does it!!! she only ever laughed hysterically before! Now she does it and expects us to laugh. ha.

Todays show...

Doodle Do. I actually like this show. Its a new one, and when it started, me and Chris were like "THIS IS CRAP!" but we watched it once or twice and now actually turn it on to watch on our own! Its three hands called Dib Dab, Scribble and Stick. They live in Chris' attick. Chris is Welsh and his accent in mezmorising. Stick is hilarious. It seems kind of unrehearsed. One of the hands will say something and Chris will laugh because he wasnt expecting it. And people accidently overlap when theyre speaking. They do arts and crafts and act out a story at the end. DOH I cant find a pic! Its good anyway...

"Doodle Do, Doodle Do,
Dib Dab, Scribble, Stick and you
We'll show you, what to do
So that you can doodle do...
DOOOOODLEEEEEEE
Doodle Do is what we do
You can doodle, do it to
Doodle Do, Doodle Do
Everyone can Doodle Do."

And at the end they all have a goodbye line and they sometimes turn it into whatever theme they've done.

See ya later alligator
See you soon over the moon
Bye Bye got to fly!

Its great!

Oh and I got flowers!

I forgot about that. Chris brought me flowers when he got home today. I spoil EVERY surprise for myself though. I ALWAYS know if he's planning something... and I guessed ALL of my Christmas presents without any clues! There was no indication that he was gonna buy me flowers... but from how chirpy he sounded on the phone on the way home... I just knew! ahhh.

I wish I had something interesting to say

And maybe *SOME OVERLY PREGNANT WOMEN* wouldnt nag so much!!! LOL!

Yes... I've worked out why I never update. Because I never actually DO anything therefore never have anything to update you with. Lets see... yesterday all I done was take lots more pics of Joey. CLICK HERE TO SEE He is a beauty if I may say so myself.

Then today... ummm... ive done even less! Ive sat and watched childrens shows all day. I seriously need to buy myself an adult to play with... ummm... not in *that* way. But dancing to a song which goes... (drumroll please)

"jelly boats and pirates gold princess pea pies...
carrot cakes and fruit smiles and envelope surprise...
we love our cafe and we love to cook
we have a fantastic recipe book... *do do do do do do*
He is big cook, and he is small
friends in our cafe we cook for them all
when your tummy gets all rumbley
you're ready for a treat [insert biting sound here]
we can make something delicious to eat."

If you actually heard that song for real you'd be shocked that I know all the words. Its sang kinda fast so its all a bit of a jumble! From the show Big Cook Little Cook about two guys... Ones the size of a fairy, and the other is human size and they have a "cafe" even though today Big Cook didnt know what a telescope is "Whats a telescope Small?" "its something you look in to make things that are really far away, look really big" [Big Cook Ben looks into telescope at Little small] "WOAH! Im not going to call you Small anymore Small, Im going to call you GIGANTIC!" [ho ho ho]

And they have ONE customer a day and instead of the customer chosing their item... they chose it for them, and its never something thats gonna fill them up... (eg. a melon with some bits of apple in made to look like a mouth with teeth... or a slushy ice drink)... oh yea - the slushy ice drink took 12 hours! why would peter the penguin wait in the cafe for over 12 hours for an "iceburg slush" Oh and Small flies around on a spoon... hmmmm....

I'll give you the low down on some other kids programme the next time i've had a boring day! (every day!)

I ACTUALLY EDITED THIS BECAUSE I SAW I GOT ONE WORD WRONG IN THE SONG! I PUT "IN FOR A TREAT" INSTEAD OF "READY FOR A TREAT" Im so sad!

SARAH LEIGH PORTUGAL!

I DO update!!!!!!

sorta!!!!

Just had to clear that one up :)

say cheese!

Ooh yes, Yesterday was PHOTO DAY! I took 114 pics of the Joe-meister! yup im crazy.

Today we done nothing. lol. woo im full of exciting news arent i?!

Tomorrow I am having a huge house-clean! because mummy is coming round after work, and shes a cleanliness queen... and well... i take after my dad! LOL! Ellas new fun thing is to empty all four toyboxes we have downstairs, so she can sit in the boxes and walk around with them on her head and things... so this back room is just..... a sea of toys... with 4 boxes floating on top. UGH! wish me luck!

OOH OOH AAH AAH

that was my impersonation of some form of monkey. great eh?! we went to the zoo today. there were lots of monkeys there because its a specialist primate place or something. but im afraid i forgot my camera, so no pics from me.

erm... im tired and cant be bothered to write any more!

SHOP SHOP SHOPPING!"

Well AF arrived this morning and I feel like poo, so to cheer myself up I packed the children up (ha) and went shopping for myself! Im going out with my friend Kirsty for a bit tonight so I bought myself a spanking new outfit to wear...

UH OH I JUST REALISED I HAVE NO SHOES TO WEAR

My feet are too fat for the ones i bought today. With Joey in the bjorn and ella pulling this off the shelves, I just didnt have time to stop and try them on. EEK WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!?!

Chris comes home today. I cant work out if thats a good thing or a bad thing! lol. The house is so serene without him.

oh and check our new fun-thing out :)

YAY! WE HAVE A BUMBO! unfortunately the only colour available was aqua. I sooooooo wanted the lime green one. but hey - i cant complain its an ingenius invention! Joey LOVES it!

my home studio!

chris set up a home studio for me. hehe. its so cool. and joey is just such a ham for the camera, that ive got some great stuff...
this is a personal favourite of mine of Joey!
Ella isnt quite as cooperative, but i did get SOME of her.

Karen is right...

I am a slacker!

Im just so damn lazy these days!

Right im gonna start a bunch of entries from the past two weeks of things ive missed

All Alone

Chris is working in Plymouth now for 6 months. dont worry, he is back at weekends. But still! Two kids under two on my own all week. I know I can do it. It sounds worse than it actually is. So I bathed Ella tonight for the first time in MONTHS! Fear not, she has been washed! lol. Chris' baths her before bed every night. hes supposedly better at it than me with the hair washing and all that, but in actual fact i was marvellous. She always screams and cries when Chris washes her hair... I didnt get one tear. Infact, I got giggles. Im better than him! YEEE HEEE! So I am no longer fearing bathtime as I was...

NOW I am fearing INJECTION TIME! Joey has his first set of jabs tomorrow. I dont know how im going to cope. Ive cried at every one of Ellas, and I wasnt even in the room. I had to have FOBs mum do it! But heck - Its all down to me with Joey. UH OH! I think I may request that someone else hold him. I will get really worked up otherwise. im so afraid of needles, and the fact my poor baby will scream wont help either. So im really dreading it. Its also my 8 week check (thought it was meant to be 6 week, but apparently my doctors do it differently. fools) So we'll see what baby preventing ideas doc can come up with. The normal pill made me ill. VERY ill. And the minipill got me pregnant. hmmm... cant be doing that again.

Im also meeting up with some friends who are home from university for the easter holiday. they've yet to meet Joey and havent seen Ella for YONKS so it'll be good.

and now for something happier...

my beautiful children. Im thinking the printers will be getting my custom within the next few days!

well so much for finishing early

now chris has told me he wont be finished work til 4. ummm hello. he told me midday, and so i told my mum midday, so my mother stayed home only for me to now have to tell her i wont be coming. oh i could throttle him. so ive put ella up for a nap, and joeys napping, and im playing with my new dryer. ok... so its like... 2 weeks old... but thats still new. and im still having tons of fun with it. I get so excited counting down to when the washing machine will finish so i can start a new load of drying! LOL! i love looking at all the labels and seein which i can tumble dry and which i cant! NONE of my clothes can go in there! WTH!?? the kids can though :)

He got home at 1!

He went out for a meal at the indian restaurant with his friends (hey guys - i used full terminology there instead of "indian" so you know its not another woman! lol) and got home at 1am. as a punishment, I made him get up for Joey at 1.30! lol. He never does nighttime feeds. mwahahahaha! today my mum has offered to look after the kids while we go out or something. well... Ive not had Joey leave my side. Actually, I have. I went out for 4 hours last month BUT Chris was looking after him, and he was when he was still in that always-sleeping newborn stage. Its different leaving him with someone else, kwim? so i dont know if I'll take her up on her offer yet. Chris is at work this morning anyhow, so, we'll see.

Who's Chris? Oh, you mean DICKHEAD!?

Prepare for big rant... My life isnt all "that", as you can imagine. Yes, being a mother is a wonderful thing, but heck, its kinda lonely too. Its far too difficult to get both kids ready every day and get out and about, so Im always stuck in the house. The weather is far too crappy to even go into the garden! so its just these walls and this computer screen, is all I see. If it wasnt for the messageboards I think I may have jumped off a roof by now. Geez its the only adult interaction I get! And although I cherish EVERY online friendship with all my being, its just not the same as IRL interaction and friends, is it? Anyway... Its a SATURDAY and Chris goes to work (even though he doesnt have to work on Saturdays! He's just crap at saying NO!) then I get a text from him asking if he can go out tonight. I just ignored it. Then he rang asking, and I said "Unfortunately it is not up to me, you are your own person", which obviously means "I'd rather you never"... kwim? So he comes home, jumps in the shower, and starts getting ready to go out. Apparently its ok though, because he wont be home late, only about 1am... erm... once it hits bedtime it doesnt MATTER what time you get in anyway! Its not like you ever do anything to help at nighttime! Anyway, since then he's told me he'll be home about 11pm.... its 11.15pm, and no Chris. So he's out tonight. Working AGAIN tomorrow. Goes away Monday til Thursday, then going out Friday.... the cycle continues.... Well... Ive been pretty low today regarding the first things I was talking about. Being stuck in this life and I have NO way out. Just me, and two screaming puking babies. All I do now is change diapers. Nothing else is important. So I have a bit of a tearful episode. I told him all of how I was feeling, and yet all he can do is swan off out with his friends every night. So his solution? "well you arrange to go out next friday night with your friends, and I'll look after the kids" ok... two problems with this... 1) he has a works do to attend. and 2) I have no friends. Honestly now, I dont. So I explain this and he says Im STUPID, of COURSE Ive got friends, and he lists all my pre-Joey friends. Theyre just acquaintences now. So apparently I should ring my "friends" and make an effort and have a gossip like I used to do.... yes, when I had things to gossip about... what am I meant to gossip to my 18 y/o acquaintences about? How many ounces of milk Joey took in his last feed? How long Ella has been napping? So he thought he'd try and prove his point further and picked up my phone "what are you doing?" "going through your list of friends"... so he went down my phonebook... chris... dad... jane... mum... sarah... tom. Thats him, my father, Ellas nan, my mother, Sarah (of the Nathaniel's) which is an incorrect number anyway, and my brother. Yes... lots of friends there. So I burst into another wave of tears and ask if thats proved MY point? and he just doesnt understand why Im so upset. Apparently I should be having a whale of a time. Just turned 19 (which went by unnoticed. not even a card from him or the kids!), two young and demanding children, no friends, and four walls to sit and stare at all day. Yes, my life is a barrel of laughs. Dont get me wrong. I LOVE my children more than life itself, and I wouldnt turn back time for anything. Theyre so so special. But my life is still dull, especially compared to what it was. Before I was with Chris I had TONS of friends. I always had someone to call. Always had some talking to me on msn. Always had new emails, and text messages. Always had someone to go shopping with when I fancied it. Always had someone to go for a drink with when I was Ella-free. Its all vanished. I seem to have gone from one extreme to another, and my personality and gone with it. Im not the happy, outgoing, humorous induvidual I was back then. im so intraverted now. I never imagined in a million years that would be a word to describe me. But its true. Ok... so after all of this... Chris went out. After over an hour of sobbing and telling him my troubles... he still went out. what a dickhead. He just doesnt THINK. Sometimes I wish I was a single mum again. Its like having another kid to worry about with him. I would do everything on my terms back then, and I wouldnt have anyone else to worry about or anyone else to dote on, even. Things were so much simpler. But they are just silly thoughts, because I do love him, and would never give him up, but there are just times he needs a whack round the head with a frying pan. But I guess thats men for you! Well, I think Im done for now. Its now 11.30pm and he's still not back. I guess I'll just go to bed.

The Beach

(ive always wanted to capture a scene like this!)

Essential Sibling Bonding Time

Until the Winnie Pooh Tree...

A little bit of Joey...

Weymouth Pics...

We went to Weymouth this week. It was great. Ella had a whale of a time. We went out to the family bar at night and Ella thoroughly enjoyed playing with all the children. Im looking into nurseries next week. Just for a day or two a week. She needs that interaction with kids her age. Shes getting none.

Some Weymouth pics can be found here...
http://s25.photobucket.com/albums/c59/amwardo/holiday/

My Birthday

As of Tuesday, I am officially 19. Lets say *awwww*

Gosh I do apologise

I am so sorry for not updating my blog for like... 3 weeks or something stupid. I dont know why, but Ive completely forgotten about it! but Im back! :)

SHIT!

Just spilled coke all over the keyboard. Im so clumsey!

Joey's got a new Mummy...

I went out of the room to fetch a bib because Joey was fussing. I told Ella to look after her baby brother, but totally didnt expect this! All of a sudden I heard him screaming, crying... and then silence... I ran into the room to find this! She'd climbed onto the settee, hoisted him to sitting, took the bottle, and started feeding him. As though she does it 10 times a day! It appears Im not needed anymore!

CUTIE PIE!

My beautiful boy

And another one...

"you can have a lie in tomorrow morning"

says chris last night. Joey woke every hour, and it was me getting up every time. "you should just wake me up and tell me what to do and i'll do it" he says. So finally at 7am, im exhausted. Joey wakes. Chris had said I could have a lie in. So I woke him, we switched sides of the bed... by 7.20am I was back on Joeys side. He cant handle the fact Joey wouldnt go back to sleep. He started F'in and Blindin. "probably because its morning, he's awake now." "well im not going downstairs with him at 7am!" "thats the time he gets up!!!" so i got joseph ready, got ella up, and we all came downstairs. Chris just got up half hour ago (9.45). So much for a lie-in which i REALLY need. MEN!

Another Ella n Joey Sig...

Oh if only I could explain

How much I love my little guy. He is just... the best! He's so gorgeous. I could kiss his cheeks all day every day. And hes so well behaved which just adds to my wonder. I cant believe that when I was pregnant I was worried (ok, not worried... adament!) that I wouldnt love this little one. How could I not love him? And Im so happy that dont have to give him up for another 18 years :) Ive been on such a high the past 3 weeks just because Im so in love! And it was instant! Completely different to with Ella. You know what I think it is? With Ella they asked if I wanted her lifted straight onto me, or whether I'd like them to wrap her up first. I told them to clean her and wrap her up. So it must have been like 5 mins before I even got to hold her. Then they took her off me, and gave her to my mum for her first feed. WTH? i wasnt asked about that. Although Im not complaining as then she quit breathing because she didnt realise she had to breathe whilst sucking. And then they ran off with her to the NICU and I didnt get to see her til I woke the next morning, and when I went into the NICU I didnt know which baby was mine. Anyway, my point being, I never got any close-ness with Ella in the first hours of her life. I never got that inital bond. It took me a while to fall in love with her. yes, I loved her, but I wasnt in love with her for a few days! With Joey it was instant. They threw him up onto me and I just melted! Even though he was all ugly and scrunched up and covered in blood and gunk... to me he was beautiful! Then I got to just hold him for about two hours before they took him to put an IV in. Then I got to go up to the ward holding him, and then spend the whole night watching him sleep... KWIM!? I had that time with him that I didnt have with Ella. Plus my birth experience was everything Ella's wasnt! It was everything I dreamed it'd be and more! I just cant stop thinking about the birth. its in my head constantly. Am I weird?! Anyway the whole point of this waffle was that I am so in love. I really really love Joseph so so so much. And Im so glad he was a boy. Even though I wanted a girl. I have this sort of... protective mummy-ness going on about me because he's my lil boy! Never had that with Ella. She wont have to deal with the bitches that are women! lol. My poor guy will! hehe. ahhh I cant wait for him to have his first girlfriend :D. ok Im skipping ahead a bit. but hey, I cant help it! lol. So yes. I think I'll shhh now.

Groovy Chick

Check her out! She mustve known she was looking cool, because she then decided to go on a rampage and trash the house! But she looked too cute to shout at! lol.

Thank you Shelly!

Look what Shelly bought for Joey :) Doesnt he look cute!

Slideshows

My Ella slideshow. I made this in November, so its not very up-to-date

http://media.putfile.com/Raise-Me-Up

My Joseph slideshow.

http://media.putfile.com/welcomingjoseph

Some pics of my baby girl!

Heres some pics from yesterday.

Gosh its been a while...

like... 2 days or something?! thats crazy for me!

Well yes... Ive been SICK! ugh. It appears I have swollen tonsils. That just keep swelling. BAH!

Friday night I went out! with my friend kirsty! It was pretty good actually! I found £25 on the floor! Bonus! So bought a large amount of alcohol. OOPS! lol.

Yesterday we went to Chris' cousins confirmation. I felt like a big bag of shit and I have strong views about christianity and dont agree with a lot of the catholic teachings. nothin against catholics!!! I am marrying into a very catholic family, and my dads family are catholic. But I had to bite my tongue a few times during the service.

Oh, on Saturday night Chris went to pick his mum and dad up from their friends at midnight, because they'd been drinking, and Chris said

"My mum said some things I never thought I'd hear her say!"
"what about?"
"you"
"WHAT?!?"
"she thinks the sun shines out your arse!"

Ok so then he went on to say how she was saying how great I was and how attractive I was, and how I have great boobs... WTF???!!! and how intelligent i am, and what a great mother I am, and ive got a cool mum and dad... etc etc. I thought the hatred was meant to be a mutual thing?

Anyway... that me up-to-date!

Thank you Paula!

Paula sent Joey the most GORGEOUS blanket ever, and sent these "woof woof"s for Ella. She has not let go all morning!

how do i find time

to make siggys? somehow I do!

My First Day Alone...

Chris is back to work today. I am alone. *sob* So far, so good. And its almost time for Ellas nap! *phewph*. Shes quite good really. She keeps herself occupied. Very independant! She's such a great big sister too. Everyday she does something else which makes me heart melt! She came wandering up to me the other day as I was holding Joseph, and she put a bib around his chin, then went and got the bottle Chris had just made up, and came and shoved the bottle in Josephs mouth! It was so cute! But what made it even cuter, was when Joseph started dribbling milk down his chin, she took the bottle out, and took the bib, and wiped his chin! OMG I melted! She is just so sweet! I never thought such a boysterous toddler could be so loving! She really has stunned me!

My Babies

Yes... thats Ella in Joeys car seat! She likes it in there! lol. I just love this pic! :)

Some Sigs...

Tired.... GRRRR MEN!

Joey woke 4 times last night. no growlin at him though. He done wonderfully. Ate what he watedand went back to sleep no problem! Chris of course, doesnt wake up at all. But twice Joey screamed so loud he actually did stir. Well he wakes up this morning and claims that he got up and sat up with me twice... now hold on a minute. since when has flickering eyes for 5 seconds been sittin up awake with me? So 8 o clock comes round and Joeys hungry, so I tell Chris "Im having a lie in. Feed Joseph." oooh I was so proud of my sternness! And Ella was awake running wild around her room anyway so he could get up with the pair of them... nope, he feeds joey 2oz, then puts him to bed unsettled and goes back to sleep. so theres joey whining (although asleep), how am i meant to sleep then? So I asked Chris to get up with him "why? he's fine. go back to sleep"... so, i had to get up with him myself! Im exhausted. I'd just like to be able to sleep for an hour or two knowing that im not on call! KWIM? THEN the man has the cheek to say "well I need a lie in one day this week. im knackered!" oh right ok. thats fair. i want to scream. Im just so tired.

My Sleeping Smiler :)

Ok... So yesterday Joey smiled. Yes i know what you're all thinking... GAS! nope! He was looking right at me and i was tickling his chin and saying "whos a handsome buggar?!" *grin* "is joey a handsome buggar?" *grin*. 11 days old! Mind you, my friends son was smiling CONSTANTLY at 2 weeks old. I thought that was like... impossible!

So I tell MIL "nope. thats wind." "no, he was really smiling" "nope. he cannot focus. how can he smile" Oh sorry ye fount of all knowledge! *shows MIL the finger* ok - so i didnt, but i'd have liked to. I cant wait for her to see the smile, and PROVE HER WRONG! cow.

Last night Joey woke a staggering... twice! OMG! The first time Ella woke only twice was at 18 m/o! Seriously... I was stunned! My wonderfully little sleeper. I hope he keeps it up. He seems to be learning the difference between day and night! YAY!

Ella held Joey

It was the funniest thing ever! she sat with him on her lap and she was pointing at his nose and his toes and his head and his belly and just saying baby over and over again. after about 2 or 3 mins, chris tried to take Joseph back and she went mad and squeezed him half to death. it was like a tug of war! she just wouldnt let go, and clutched him so tight it took two adults to struggle to get joseph away from his crazy sister! This is a photo of her squeezing him! But seriously, I couldnt stop smiling. It was so adorable watching her sitting there with him. Shes so good with him. And to think I was worried about how she'd react! Whenever we're out and about, she'll be talking to strangers, and showing them her little brother, pointing to the other side of the stroller and repeatedly saying baby. and whenever someone comes to visit, she'll take their hand at the door, and drag them to wherever joseph is and show them her baby. The thing with that is, she always knows which room he is in, even if they havent been in the same room for an hour or so. Heres my new siggy...

My Fatso!

Day 6. The midwife was explaining how they lose weight in the first week, yadda yadda...

"So how much was he born?"
"7-12"
"8-12?"
"no, 7-12"
"oh wow - hes 8lbs 1oz already!"

Yay! My little chubber dubber!

Bouncy Chair

Bathtime

This morning was bathtime. Ella helped me to wash Joeys hair. She was patting it dry with her towel.

And surprisingly, Joey didnt cry while he was in the water. he made a huge roaring fuss every time he was bathed at the hospital!

Daddy and Joseph

awwww I love them so much! my little men! Chris seems to think Joey has a conspiracy against him. Whenever I feed him he'll take 3-4 ounces. Whenever Chris feeds him he'll only take 1-2.

Big Sister!

I didnt manage to get any photos (this is how out-of-sorts I am at the moment! ugh!) but today was Ella and Joeys first day together. Ella really wasnt phased, as we walked into the house with him. I put the car seat down on the floor, and she went and crouched down repeating "whos that whos that whos that" over and over... she was rocking the car seat, tickling his feet, and stroking him. then she unzipped his coat and asked me to take it off him. She'd be interested in him for 5 mins, and then just not even notice he was there. Our landlord came around today to see Joseph, and bring gifts for him and Ella. When I opened the door to her, Ella went running up and started shouting for her to go look! "ohh ohh" (means look, look)... and our poor landlord was dragged by Ella into the front room so Ella could show her her new little brother. It was sort of like... Ella just knew that he was her baby brother. She wasnt confused or insanely excited. Just how any sibling in-the-know would be. Maybe shes more intelligent than I think! lol.

He's HERE!!!!

Ok after that last post, MIL and Chris came around and I sat in absoulte silence. gritting my teeth whenever I had a contraction to show MIL I didnt need her there. She kept quizzing me "where are the pains? how bad are they?!" well both her and Chris moaned that they'd come out of work (erm, i didnt ask for them to!) and I wasnt even in labour. Chris still didnt believe me when at about 4.30 i said maybe i should go get checked at L&D. he also still didnt believe me when the midiwife checked me at about 5.30 and said there was no change. He had no choice but to believe me when by 7pm i was crying my eyes out. And 8pm when I was yelling that it hurt. And 9pm when I was demanding they break my waters cause I HAD to push. And 9.06pm when a baby popped out!

Joseph Thomas was born at 21.06 on the 7th February 2006 weighing 7lbs 12.5oz, 53cm long. Here he is...


theres lots of pics at http://photobucket.com/albums/c59/amwardo/Joseph/

Once my life settles a little in say, a week or two, i shall return to my ever-updating ways! but for now theres just far too much to do! argh!!!!

ANGER!

I hate getting angry. Sometimes i get so angry it all boils up in my blood and i scream and want to decapitate someones head. this is very rare, although it has happened twice in 3 days. eek!

So Chris rings MIL just to let her know that Im having a few painful contractions. She will be our transport to the hospital, so its only intelligent that he give her some warning (bare in mind I dont plan to go to the hospital for hours yet. im perfectly fine here. the pain is more than bearable, and i was told to wait til i couldnt hack it any more to go in. Im not hanging around for nothing again!)

Well... MIL takes it upon herself to decide that she needs to get me to the hospital, so packs up at work and tell chris to let me know shes on her way. I DO NOT INTEND TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL! the fact that I have just put Ella up for a nap kinda reinforces that fact!!! and I also thought I could get a few hours shut eye in too. But no. MIL insists she is coming around. And nothing Chris says can stop her. FUCK YOU! if I need anyone here its Chris or MY mum! GRRRR! and now Chris is on his way home from work. Erm... hello... I dont need anyone here! But now they're both coming to have a party with me.

For fucks sake, I just so angry.

I said I wanted pain...

...and now Ive got it. Im enjoying it at this level while I still can. Its all through my lower back about every 10 mins. I feel like a piece of crap now. Im making me and Ella something to eat, and then Im going to get dressed and clean the house, go for a SHORT walk (not the 10 miles or so i walked yday!) just so I can get out of the house. i need to pass some time before ellas nap!

Jess's Day...

So I was woken in the night with contractions. theyre really quite intense now. but theyre not regulating! they were 8 mins apart yesterday evening for 3 hours. then they just stopped.

just had one then. i have to breathe through them. and stop whatever Im doing. good, right?! NO! BECAUSE THEY'RE JUST COMING AT RANDOM WHEN THEY FEEL LIKE IT!

Im so silly... I just keep crying!!!...

Please dont ask why Im crying
Its not because Im mad
Its not because Im hurting
Its not because Im sad

These are the hardest days
Knowing its so near
The seconds seem like minutes now
And each day like a year

I really want to hold you
To kiss your little nose
And feel you softly breathing
And count your tiny toes

But I'll wipe away my tears
Because I ought to be
Happy that I've got you
Curled up inside of me

I promise I'll now smile
And enjoy this special time
Cuz it's only for these days
That you're mine, and only mine

Sarah's Day...

Well Im still here!

Last night i drifted off about 9.30pm, and then at 10pm was woken by this dreadful feeling. it was like... some sickness sort of feeling. so I hung around in the bathroom for 15 mins waiting to vomit, but nothing was happening. when I went back to bed and lay down it got worse. So i wake Chris up, and he just falls back to sleep, and I wake him again and he said "soz, but im tired!" "AND SO AM I!" so i went and slept on the sofa! lol. it was much better because i was upright and this horrid feeling was settled when I was upright. I slept til 4am, and then went back up to bed and managed to sleep til Ella woke just now.

Talk about feeling pressure down there! The baby is LOW! Theres no doubt about it!

So Ella and I are going to get dressed, and I hope to be out of the house by 9.30 (its 8.42 now) and off walking!

Hopefully I wont be updating you later! lol.

Jen's Day...

when we all thought she'd win.... NOPE! although theres still 3.5 hours left! hehe.

we were up at 5am and went to L&D. there was no change when they examined me and the midwife just said complete opposite things to what i was told yesterday. It appears my labour has stalled. WOO FUN!

but you'd think at 5cm they'd help me along a bit? break my waters at least! but no...

here i am back at home. I am glad to be here and not there. They said they'd like me to stay there incase anything happened... but theres nothing i can do there to get it going again. I can do the sex, bath, walk thing here lol!

Ive started getting contractions again. Theyre coming, but in no pattern. Theyre strongish too. Maybe not to the point of being called painful, but hey - i got this far without any pain, whos saying i cant go further!

been for a walk, had sex, will have more sex, and sleep lots tonight, and then me and ella will spend ALL of tomorrow walking! LMAO! i will walk til something starts happening! seriously! i plan on exploring the city! hehe. Chris is going to work but he's only going to be half an hour away so that doesnt worry me.

my nipples are sore. i cannot stimulate them anymore! lmao! i shall now leave them be until baby gnaws them raw! they deserve a days rest at least, until they have real work to do!

im very very tired. so I apologise if I fail to update! I'll do my best though :)

Guess the Weight....

Ok it appears we have another fun game! LOL... guess the weight!!!!

7lbs 6oz - Jen
7lbs 8oz - Chelsea
7lbs 14oz - JC
8lbs 1oz - Shelly
8lbs 2oz - Heather of the N's
8lbs 7oz - Cindy

Tricia's Day...

so i wake up with a headache. not too bad. but i called L&D because the fact that i hadnt been to my appointment worried me. i just assumed they'd check me over and send me home, so chris dropped me at the hospital at 9am, but i told him there was no need for him to come in with me because he had errands to run, and he could get them done then come pick me back up again.

My BP was fine, no protien either, but it did look as though i had a UTI, so they sent off a specimin. They said they'd monitor the babys heartrate for 20 mins or so, and then I could get home...

Well they began the monitoring, and i lay there, mightly tired as the headache had kept me awake, so i even got to nap while this was going on. about half an hour later, the midwife came in to check, and asked whether or not i could feel these contractions... I said I could feel they were there but they werent painful. but she looked and said they were 11 mins apart exactly, and she'd like to examine me...

So off with the knickers....

"the babys head is low.... very low.... im going to have to go behind the head... cervix is paper thin.... membranes are buldging.... and.... you're a good 5cm!"

"REALLY?!"

So she tells me she'll send me up to the ward when I can have a nice bath and either wait for my waters to break or wait til the contractions were a little closer, as I wasnt in any discomfort so there was no need for the waters to be broken then.

Well basically... I am now home! I thought I'd wait it out here instead, where I can run up and down the stairs as much as I like, and have as many baths as I like, and maybe even attempt a bit of sex... but yea... Im in labour! WOO HOO!

The Van...

well its big... and its a van... but it does the job! lol.

and i even got a bumpy ride out of it to help things along... it was unintentional, but not unwelcome! lol. i guess i shouldnt have expected a smooth ride from a van.

i forgot to buy pineapple. d'oh! but i did remember to buy 12 more cokes :) but how would i forget such an important thing?

so i guess more sex is the only thing for it!

Happy Birthday Iris

oh, and Happy Birthday Iris!!! enjoy your day :)

Ana's Day...

And also my day in the mummy vs daddy bet...

Well Im afraid that it doesnt look like it gonna happen! DOH!

Even though I was sitting in the babys room at 11.30pm unpacking and repacking my hospital bags to check everything was there. lol. I was even folding scratch mits! WHATS WITH THAT!?! lol. I just got freaked out that its one...

ONE WEEK til im due. 1 week. OH my god!

My house is spotless. This NESTING malarky is just wonderful! I LOVE IT! I dont think Ellas diggin it though. She gets a toy out, mummy puts it away again. She gets three books out to read, mummy puts two away - she only needs to read one at a time after all! lol.

Chris is getting a van from work tonight. YAY! he'll be sharing it with steve, but hey - its better than nothing, and the company pays the insurance :) so i dont have to go out anywhere today because we will have the van to go drop ella off at Daniels. IM SO EXCITED!

Actually i might go out for a walk... jump on every third step i take... coax this baby outta me! buy some pineapple. you know the stuff!

Chelsea's Day...

Ok I thought Chelsea would win, because I had a cleaning frenzy last night. Cleaned EVERYWHERE! so unlike me! Even done the dishes and the laundry. Even had Ellas clothes for today laid out just in case we had to leave in the middle of the night! And mine and Chris' too! LOL!

Well I slept lovely last night. No contractions at all. haha. At least my house is clean :)

BELLY PICS!

Didnt go to my appt...

Ok so i had a bad bad morning. I dont know why. I was stressing over nothing. It was horrible. I felt out of control of my body because I couldnt control my emotions! ARGH! But I went and checked my BP which was 134/87 (eek) but Im putting that down to the fact I was stressed. Ive cleaned the house up just incase tonight is baby night. lol. I went for a walk too. I feel more in control now than I did earlier.

Trish's Day...

Come on Trish!

Well... as Chris left for work, instead of the usual "I love you, see you later", I got "Do me a favour.... go into labour!" *Manda waves her magic wand*. He seems to think I am delibrately not having this baby.

I have my 39 week appointment today at 2.45. im just gonna get the usual "BP fine, urine fine, measuring fine, any headaches or swelling then call L&D, keep and eyes on movement, see you next week". ugh. give me some excitement woman!

I am SOOOOO tired. Even though Chris and I were in bed at like 9.10pm!!! wth is with that?!? I finally dropped off about an hour afterwards. Ella has started to wake at 7.30 instead of 9.30... not nice. I want to still be sleeping *sob*

I left her awake in bed for like... an hour and a half... then when i finally dragged my lazy arse out of bed, and opened Ellas bedroom door, I nearly had a heart attack. There she was, danging what can only be described as last nights diaper, over the side of the crib! She must have only just taken it off though, because her and the crib were dry :) phewph! my fault for being lazy i guess!

some new siggy stuffs...

I forgot to tell you all...

HE PASSED! He thought he'd failed because he crashed into the curb, but nope, he passed! Im so proud of him. He is still in shock 24 hours later.

And Sarah. I had to LOL! you wreckless driver! haha! Im sure when its my turn, I will beat your 6 attempts... Im gonna give myself at least 8 fails before I even think about passing. I can just sense it in my veins.

Valerie's Day...

Today is Valeries Day for winning... or losing, even. i thought i'd have a go at the whole nipple stimulation thing. JEEEEEEEEZ Man! That brought on a couple of DARN painful contractions! YOUCH! so i have stopped doing it! lol. It wont cause me to go into labour, it'll just cause me unneccesary pain, so whats the point?! I have had HEARTBURN all morning too. UGH!

And Happy Birthday Dennae!

Last night we went to visit baby morgan. She is the tiniest baby I have ever held. She was 5lb 2oz at birth, and 8 days old. so she was a little dot! ella got very excited when she first saw her. she stood staring in amazement because this dolly was REAL! it MOVED!... she soon got bored though. And didnt even get jealous when I held Morgan. Daddy though... well thats a different story! Ella went MAD! SHE wanted to sit on daddys lap, not morgan! lol. I guess I am unimportant! ha.

Shelly's Day...

Shelly will win if I have the baby today.

Chris has his driving test in 2 hours. FOURTH attempt. MIL is being a bitch and keeps yelling at him that he HAS TO PASS and she's done that every time. He's come home devastated because he's failed, and what does she do. Shout at him and point out that her and FIL passed first time. THE KID NEEDS A HUG NOT A SCALDING! grrrr! so im hoping, for his sake, that he passes today. He's a great driver, but they are SO STRICT over here. Perfection is required or you fail! and heck, noones perfect. So fingers crossed todays the day! I'll let y'all know anyhow!

I feel better this morning, after lots of virtual hugs (thanks everyone!) and a good nights sleep. Its just horrible to think, as i look out the window, that Lily is buried way up the garden instead of running around in her hutch like usual. Its strange. Shes gone. Everyone has their time I guess. And Im grateful Ella is not old enough to understand!!!

Goodbye Lily. I love you.

After a day out shopping in Birmingham, I came home skipping and dancing. I had saved the pineapple leaves for Lily, so I ran out to see to her and theres was no movement in the hutch. I looked around and saw her lying there... dead. Im a bit broken up about it atm. I know its just a rabbit and it could be much worse, but I still loved her, and its not nice to lose someone you love, right?! Chris has buried her. It hurts a lot. I dont like this. I dont even have any pics of her. This is the best I can do...

Heather of the Humeckys Day....

Its not happenin darling! lol.

Karens Day... The sun has not yet risen...

...but I am here. I have been awake since 2am. its now 5.10am. I was having some BAAAAD pains, but theyve subsided now... but heck check me out with my bloody show! lol. I dont know what that means, but it seemed to excite Cindy!

Chris is still sleeping.

Paula's Day...

If baby arrives today, Paula will win.

Yesterday I walked for upwards of 5 hours, and I had a whole fresh pineapple to myself (gosh my lips and mouth STUNG last night)... so if you're trying to induce labour, neither of those work, because Im still large and pregnant :)

But GOSH was that pineapple nice! And a bargain! only 99p!!!

Well just going to drop Ella off and pay some bills. I should be leaving my house right about now, but neither of us are even dressed! ARGH!

Janet's Day...

Today is the Day of Janet. You shall win your prize if baby appears today!

I had those stupid contractions last night again!

I am going SHOPPING today. Gosh... I feel like I havent been to town for about 10 years! Its gonna be a culture shock! haha.

Gosh... I just have nothing to say. This is so unlike me...

My 38 week appointment

BP 110/80 ... that would be high for me on a normal day, but im guessing because we're nearing the end, its gonna go up some anyway! everything fine and hunky dorey. babys head 4/5th engaged. nearly completely there! my next appointment is next Wednesday. Im so happy everything is going well :)

So Jodi... unless some miracle occurs in the next 3 hours... you're out of the running! lol.

Jodi's Day...

Jodi, if baby arrives before 11.59pm GMT, the prize is yours...

gosh every time I woke last night (6-8 times) I was having contractions. EVERY NIGHT without fail, I'll have painful contractions, then I dream I wake in labour... DO I!? nope. haha. Not that I mind, but hey!

Ooh I have my 38 week appointment today. Hey Jodi, you're in with a chance now then! If my BP is raised! But I have no reason to believe it will be! My ankles are a little swollen but thats to be expected. Nothing major like with pg #1. And Ive had some visual disturbances, but only a couple. None this morning. And Im generally feeling fab! So... fingers crossed we're all set :D

So looks like I'll be walking to my appointment today. Thats about 3-4 miles!!! But I have no choice. I have no money for bus fare! Maybe the walk will help with the progression of this baby process.

Daddy's Day...

Today is Daddys day. If baby comes before midnight tonight, Chris wins. So I shall not let that happen. Not that it looks like its going to or anything... but hey! i have 17 days til my due date left after all!

Well I plan to do nothing today. I just cant be bothered :)

Baby Morgan

Steve just came around to drop some boots off for Chris, and pick up some preemie clothes for the baby, and he brought Photos. OMG SHES ADORABLE! She really is a looker! Her poor mummy looked incredibly worn out though, gosh! HUGEOUS bags under her eyes... but a big smile on her face!

As I expected, When we said goodbye and closed the door, Chris starts winging that he wants this baby! Not long now...

Iris' Day...

Today is Iris' day. She shall win the prize if the baby arrives within the next 12 hours 12 mins...

Steve and Vicky had their baby last night. Unfortunately she had to have an emergency c-section, and Steve said she'd been through a hard time. I feel so bad for her. Im not sure why she had to have it, but she was induced, and shes only a skinny little thing... The babys name is Morgan, and she weighs 5lbs 2oz at 37 weeks.

Chris was texting Steve this morning, and then after their conversation he went in a mood and said he wanted his baby now! LOL! I think he's a little jealous! "Can we have the baby now please?" ... Unfortunately its not quite as simple as that... but I did get extra sex because I said that helps! LMAO!!!

I had some painful contractions which woke me last night. Only about 4. But we're getting closer and closer!!!

Link to the bets...

And if you want to see whos got what date, as we're getting closer to the big day, heres a link to the original post with all of the dates...
http://amwardy.blogspot.com/2006/01/bets-are-being-placed.html

If you're not on there, and want to be, just drop me a line!

My Painful BH :(

These bleeding Braxton Hicks are getting more and more painful by the day. I dont mind the pain of labour, but JEEZ whats the point in being in pain now. Im not getting anything out of it! lol.

We just watched American Idol. I found it really quite amusing. Simon Cowell is sooo much funnier when he's ripping the piss out of Americans rather than Brits! Gosh... that man must be LOADED!



Ella went to bed an hour and a half ago... she is still awake.

I've decided Dylan is a nice boys name. Its not up to me what our baby is called though, so I'll just keep mentioning the name Dylan. Chris likes it, but theres names he likes more... But I prefer Dylan to all of them. Its just appeared out of the blue today on my 500th quest through the battered copy of one of our baby name books.

Well Chris and his dad fixed the leaky tap today, so guess what... IM GONNA HAVE A BATH :D!!! I have to wait for Ella to drop off to sleep first though, otherwise I'll disturb her as she is right next to the bathroom.