Oh and I got flowers!

I forgot about that. Chris brought me flowers when he got home today. I spoil EVERY surprise for myself though. I ALWAYS know if he's planning something... and I guessed ALL of my Christmas presents without any clues! There was no indication that he was gonna buy me flowers... but from how chirpy he sounded on the phone on the way home... I just knew! ahhh.

I wish I had something interesting to say

And maybe *SOME OVERLY PREGNANT WOMEN* wouldnt nag so much!!! LOL!

Yes... I've worked out why I never update. Because I never actually DO anything therefore never have anything to update you with. Lets see... yesterday all I done was take lots more pics of Joey. CLICK HERE TO SEE He is a beauty if I may say so myself.

Then today... ummm... ive done even less! Ive sat and watched childrens shows all day. I seriously need to buy myself an adult to play with... ummm... not in *that* way. But dancing to a song which goes... (drumroll please)

"jelly boats and pirates gold princess pea pies...
carrot cakes and fruit smiles and envelope surprise...
we love our cafe and we love to cook
we have a fantastic recipe book... *do do do do do do*
He is big cook, and he is small
friends in our cafe we cook for them all
when your tummy gets all rumbley
you're ready for a treat [insert biting sound here]
we can make something delicious to eat."

If you actually heard that song for real you'd be shocked that I know all the words. Its sang kinda fast so its all a bit of a jumble! From the show Big Cook Little Cook about two guys... Ones the size of a fairy, and the other is human size and they have a "cafe" even though today Big Cook didnt know what a telescope is "Whats a telescope Small?" "its something you look in to make things that are really far away, look really big" [Big Cook Ben looks into telescope at Little small] "WOAH! Im not going to call you Small anymore Small, Im going to call you GIGANTIC!" [ho ho ho]

And they have ONE customer a day and instead of the customer chosing their item... they chose it for them, and its never something thats gonna fill them up... (eg. a melon with some bits of apple in made to look like a mouth with teeth... or a slushy ice drink)... oh yea - the slushy ice drink took 12 hours! why would peter the penguin wait in the cafe for over 12 hours for an "iceburg slush" Oh and Small flies around on a spoon... hmmmm....

I'll give you the low down on some other kids programme the next time i've had a boring day! (every day!)

I ACTUALLY EDITED THIS BECAUSE I SAW I GOT ONE WORD WRONG IN THE SONG! I PUT "IN FOR A TREAT" INSTEAD OF "READY FOR A TREAT" Im so sad!

SARAH LEIGH PORTUGAL!

I DO update!!!!!!

sorta!!!!

Just had to clear that one up :)

say cheese!

Ooh yes, Yesterday was PHOTO DAY! I took 114 pics of the Joe-meister! yup im crazy.

Today we done nothing. lol. woo im full of exciting news arent i?!

Tomorrow I am having a huge house-clean! because mummy is coming round after work, and shes a cleanliness queen... and well... i take after my dad! LOL! Ellas new fun thing is to empty all four toyboxes we have downstairs, so she can sit in the boxes and walk around with them on her head and things... so this back room is just..... a sea of toys... with 4 boxes floating on top. UGH! wish me luck!

OOH OOH AAH AAH

that was my impersonation of some form of monkey. great eh?! we went to the zoo today. there were lots of monkeys there because its a specialist primate place or something. but im afraid i forgot my camera, so no pics from me.

erm... im tired and cant be bothered to write any more!

SHOP SHOP SHOPPING!"

Well AF arrived this morning and I feel like poo, so to cheer myself up I packed the children up (ha) and went shopping for myself! Im going out with my friend Kirsty for a bit tonight so I bought myself a spanking new outfit to wear...

UH OH I JUST REALISED I HAVE NO SHOES TO WEAR

My feet are too fat for the ones i bought today. With Joey in the bjorn and ella pulling this off the shelves, I just didnt have time to stop and try them on. EEK WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!?!

Chris comes home today. I cant work out if thats a good thing or a bad thing! lol. The house is so serene without him.

oh and check our new fun-thing out :)

YAY! WE HAVE A BUMBO! unfortunately the only colour available was aqua. I sooooooo wanted the lime green one. but hey - i cant complain its an ingenius invention! Joey LOVES it!

my home studio!

chris set up a home studio for me. hehe. its so cool. and joey is just such a ham for the camera, that ive got some great stuff...
this is a personal favourite of mine of Joey!
Ella isnt quite as cooperative, but i did get SOME of her.

Karen is right...

I am a slacker!

Im just so damn lazy these days!

Right im gonna start a bunch of entries from the past two weeks of things ive missed

All Alone

Chris is working in Plymouth now for 6 months. dont worry, he is back at weekends. But still! Two kids under two on my own all week. I know I can do it. It sounds worse than it actually is. So I bathed Ella tonight for the first time in MONTHS! Fear not, she has been washed! lol. Chris' baths her before bed every night. hes supposedly better at it than me with the hair washing and all that, but in actual fact i was marvellous. She always screams and cries when Chris washes her hair... I didnt get one tear. Infact, I got giggles. Im better than him! YEEE HEEE! So I am no longer fearing bathtime as I was...

NOW I am fearing INJECTION TIME! Joey has his first set of jabs tomorrow. I dont know how im going to cope. Ive cried at every one of Ellas, and I wasnt even in the room. I had to have FOBs mum do it! But heck - Its all down to me with Joey. UH OH! I think I may request that someone else hold him. I will get really worked up otherwise. im so afraid of needles, and the fact my poor baby will scream wont help either. So im really dreading it. Its also my 8 week check (thought it was meant to be 6 week, but apparently my doctors do it differently. fools) So we'll see what baby preventing ideas doc can come up with. The normal pill made me ill. VERY ill. And the minipill got me pregnant. hmmm... cant be doing that again.

Im also meeting up with some friends who are home from university for the easter holiday. they've yet to meet Joey and havent seen Ella for YONKS so it'll be good.

and now for something happier...

my beautiful children. Im thinking the printers will be getting my custom within the next few days!

well so much for finishing early

now chris has told me he wont be finished work til 4. ummm hello. he told me midday, and so i told my mum midday, so my mother stayed home only for me to now have to tell her i wont be coming. oh i could throttle him. so ive put ella up for a nap, and joeys napping, and im playing with my new dryer. ok... so its like... 2 weeks old... but thats still new. and im still having tons of fun with it. I get so excited counting down to when the washing machine will finish so i can start a new load of drying! LOL! i love looking at all the labels and seein which i can tumble dry and which i cant! NONE of my clothes can go in there! WTH!?? the kids can though :)

He got home at 1!

He went out for a meal at the indian restaurant with his friends (hey guys - i used full terminology there instead of "indian" so you know its not another woman! lol) and got home at 1am. as a punishment, I made him get up for Joey at 1.30! lol. He never does nighttime feeds. mwahahahaha! today my mum has offered to look after the kids while we go out or something. well... Ive not had Joey leave my side. Actually, I have. I went out for 4 hours last month BUT Chris was looking after him, and he was when he was still in that always-sleeping newborn stage. Its different leaving him with someone else, kwim? so i dont know if I'll take her up on her offer yet. Chris is at work this morning anyhow, so, we'll see.

Who's Chris? Oh, you mean DICKHEAD!?

Prepare for big rant... My life isnt all "that", as you can imagine. Yes, being a mother is a wonderful thing, but heck, its kinda lonely too. Its far too difficult to get both kids ready every day and get out and about, so Im always stuck in the house. The weather is far too crappy to even go into the garden! so its just these walls and this computer screen, is all I see. If it wasnt for the messageboards I think I may have jumped off a roof by now. Geez its the only adult interaction I get! And although I cherish EVERY online friendship with all my being, its just not the same as IRL interaction and friends, is it? Anyway... Its a SATURDAY and Chris goes to work (even though he doesnt have to work on Saturdays! He's just crap at saying NO!) then I get a text from him asking if he can go out tonight. I just ignored it. Then he rang asking, and I said "Unfortunately it is not up to me, you are your own person", which obviously means "I'd rather you never"... kwim? So he comes home, jumps in the shower, and starts getting ready to go out. Apparently its ok though, because he wont be home late, only about 1am... erm... once it hits bedtime it doesnt MATTER what time you get in anyway! Its not like you ever do anything to help at nighttime! Anyway, since then he's told me he'll be home about 11pm.... its 11.15pm, and no Chris. So he's out tonight. Working AGAIN tomorrow. Goes away Monday til Thursday, then going out Friday.... the cycle continues.... Well... Ive been pretty low today regarding the first things I was talking about. Being stuck in this life and I have NO way out. Just me, and two screaming puking babies. All I do now is change diapers. Nothing else is important. So I have a bit of a tearful episode. I told him all of how I was feeling, and yet all he can do is swan off out with his friends every night. So his solution? "well you arrange to go out next friday night with your friends, and I'll look after the kids" ok... two problems with this... 1) he has a works do to attend. and 2) I have no friends. Honestly now, I dont. So I explain this and he says Im STUPID, of COURSE Ive got friends, and he lists all my pre-Joey friends. Theyre just acquaintences now. So apparently I should ring my "friends" and make an effort and have a gossip like I used to do.... yes, when I had things to gossip about... what am I meant to gossip to my 18 y/o acquaintences about? How many ounces of milk Joey took in his last feed? How long Ella has been napping? So he thought he'd try and prove his point further and picked up my phone "what are you doing?" "going through your list of friends"... so he went down my phonebook... chris... dad... jane... mum... sarah... tom. Thats him, my father, Ellas nan, my mother, Sarah (of the Nathaniel's) which is an incorrect number anyway, and my brother. Yes... lots of friends there. So I burst into another wave of tears and ask if thats proved MY point? and he just doesnt understand why Im so upset. Apparently I should be having a whale of a time. Just turned 19 (which went by unnoticed. not even a card from him or the kids!), two young and demanding children, no friends, and four walls to sit and stare at all day. Yes, my life is a barrel of laughs. Dont get me wrong. I LOVE my children more than life itself, and I wouldnt turn back time for anything. Theyre so so special. But my life is still dull, especially compared to what it was. Before I was with Chris I had TONS of friends. I always had someone to call. Always had some talking to me on msn. Always had new emails, and text messages. Always had someone to go shopping with when I fancied it. Always had someone to go for a drink with when I was Ella-free. Its all vanished. I seem to have gone from one extreme to another, and my personality and gone with it. Im not the happy, outgoing, humorous induvidual I was back then. im so intraverted now. I never imagined in a million years that would be a word to describe me. But its true. Ok... so after all of this... Chris went out. After over an hour of sobbing and telling him my troubles... he still went out. what a dickhead. He just doesnt THINK. Sometimes I wish I was a single mum again. Its like having another kid to worry about with him. I would do everything on my terms back then, and I wouldnt have anyone else to worry about or anyone else to dote on, even. Things were so much simpler. But they are just silly thoughts, because I do love him, and would never give him up, but there are just times he needs a whack round the head with a frying pan. But I guess thats men for you! Well, I think Im done for now. Its now 11.30pm and he's still not back. I guess I'll just go to bed.